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Aug. 29th, 2004 05:02 pmSo, here it is. My last evening in Seattle until December.
I'm glad to be leaving my parents' house, but not to be leaving the city, for a reasons which are obvious if you've been paying attention.
I don't know what I'm doing. I have a whole life plan set out, and it's all just so many empty words waiting to be turned into action. Funny thing is, I don't even know if I'll get the chance to try or not. I have to wonder if making plans for the future isn't just an exercise in futility.
Anyway.
There's something so... maudlin... about leavetakings, or maybe it's just this one. I sure as hell wasn't anything but excited and happy the first time I did this, but then, at that time I didn't think I had any reason to stay.
Now, that is very painfully not the case.
It'll all be okay, though. This time apart will help me appreciate what we have all the more, and I'll get to be with my best friend again. All will work out as it's meant to, and there's no use moaning about the process.
Not that that'll stop me. :)
I'm glad to be leaving my parents' house, but not to be leaving the city, for a reasons which are obvious if you've been paying attention.
I don't know what I'm doing. I have a whole life plan set out, and it's all just so many empty words waiting to be turned into action. Funny thing is, I don't even know if I'll get the chance to try or not. I have to wonder if making plans for the future isn't just an exercise in futility.
Anyway.
There's something so... maudlin... about leavetakings, or maybe it's just this one. I sure as hell wasn't anything but excited and happy the first time I did this, but then, at that time I didn't think I had any reason to stay.
Now, that is very painfully not the case.
It'll all be okay, though. This time apart will help me appreciate what we have all the more, and I'll get to be with my best friend again. All will work out as it's meant to, and there's no use moaning about the process.
Not that that'll stop me. :)
