Spatial bereavement
Dec. 18th, 2005 09:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
teiresiasChantal is back in town, and while it's great to see her, my joy is tempered with sadness: she's thinking of moving to San Diego after she graduates, which will be in the spring.
It's strange that I didn't notice how limited my social life had become since I moved back-- I really don't see or talk to anyone save two or three people. I could see other people, of course, but most of them are people from high school whose company I've pretty much outgrown, and my time would really be better spent reading a good book than hanging out with them.
I do still have other good friends, but they're all dispersed across the country, and seeing them on a regular basis is problematic at best. I don't want to see people just for the sake of socializing itself, but I miss the people I genuinely care about when they aren't here. I just didn't realize how much until they came back... not enough distractions around now, I guess; sometimes, stability can be a curse. It only makes it even more important that I enjoy the time I have with my close friends while they and I are in the same place.
Nobody could seriously describe me as a social butterfly; I'm not one of those people who makes friends for friendship's own sake. If I consider someone a friend, it means they've distinguished themselves in a way few humans ever manage, and that makes that person very important to me.
So: the quest for true equilibrium continues.
It's strange that I didn't notice how limited my social life had become since I moved back-- I really don't see or talk to anyone save two or three people. I could see other people, of course, but most of them are people from high school whose company I've pretty much outgrown, and my time would really be better spent reading a good book than hanging out with them.
I do still have other good friends, but they're all dispersed across the country, and seeing them on a regular basis is problematic at best. I don't want to see people just for the sake of socializing itself, but I miss the people I genuinely care about when they aren't here. I just didn't realize how much until they came back... not enough distractions around now, I guess; sometimes, stability can be a curse. It only makes it even more important that I enjoy the time I have with my close friends while they and I are in the same place.
Nobody could seriously describe me as a social butterfly; I'm not one of those people who makes friends for friendship's own sake. If I consider someone a friend, it means they've distinguished themselves in a way few humans ever manage, and that makes that person very important to me.
So: the quest for true equilibrium continues.
